Austen & Me, Then & Now

So yesterday was Jane Austen’s birthday in New Zealand. And today is Jane Austen’s birthday in most other places. Therefore, this post is still valid.

Now that we’ve got that disclaimer out of the way, we can move on. As a way of celebrating Austen’s birthday, I decided to write this completely self-indulgent post. I love looking back on books and authors I love(d) and see how my feelings have changed. Of course, I still adore Austen. She is the kind of aunt that everyone wants – witty, wise and totally ok with letting you have a bit of fun without ratting you out to the parents.

But my feelings for some of her characters have undergone changes over the years, and it always interests me how books do that. Or rather, I guess, it’s the books staying the same, and you changing. Anyways, without further ado, let’s flick through her novels, shall we? (Be warned, here be spoilers.)

Pride and Prejudice

Then: When I first came across P&P, I was maybe fourteen or fifteen. I found it boring and dull, and I’m pretty sure I called Lizzie silly. Also I remember proclaiming this very loudly in a library so I can’t believe I’m still alive to tell the tale. Not to mention I hadn’t even read the novel, yet. So this judgement was being passed with nothing to stand on. What a brat.

Now: I still think Lizzie is silly at times, but for completely valid reasons (I mean, taking the word of Wickham as truth when she barely knows him? Not thinking it was weird that someone’s willing to divulge their life story, dirty laundry and all, after you’ve just met them? Not to mention Wickham bailing on the Netherfield ball, despite his If-Darcy-wants-to-avoid-me-then-he’ll-have-to-stay-away-from-the-ball bravado). Of course, now I love this novel, and everyone in it. And if not love, then at least love to laugh at everyone in it.

Sense & Sensibility

Then: When I first read this, I admired Elinor and thought she was incredibly brave and selfless, hiding her feelings and taking care of her family. Also, I couldn’t fathom why she liked Edward Ferrars. He was so meek! So much so that I often referred to him as a Wet Rag.

Now: I don’t call Edward a Wet Rag anymore. Much. It took me awhile, but it dawned on me that it was Edward’s principles that made him stand by his promise to Lucy despite falling in love with Elinor later. Even when he realized what a cow completely different person Lucy was to the facade she presented, he knew she was relying on her. Abandoning women after he’s given them their word is just not what Edward Ferrars does.

As for Elinor, I now think that she was having a little too much fun in playing the martyr. Perhaps fun isn’t the right word. I still think she’s brave, but it helps to share your problems, at least partially, if you aren’t the type to confide in anyone. No one ever benefited from bottling anything up.

Also Elinor was far too lenient with Lucy. Surely there were ways she could have extricated herself from their little tête-à-têtes. It’s almost as if Elinor was a little masochistic. She says to Marianne, “I have enjoyed all the punishments of an attachment, and none of the advantages”, but it seems to me much of the punishment is invited by Elinor herself.

Mansfield Park

Then: I didn’t think much of this one other than that it was super boring, and that Fanny was incredibly dull, if to be pitied. Oh, and I couldn’t deny how brave she was.

Now: To be fair, my view point hasn’t changed all that much. But I can better appreciate Fanny’s resilience when it comes to sticking to her principles, especially with everyone she knows disapproving of her choice. I think I now understand more deeply how hard it can be to be true to yourself when those closest to you are trying to persuade you to do the opposite. It shows immense strength of character, and is certainly admirable. Still not convinced about that Edmund guy, though.


Then: When I first read this novel I was besotted with Anne and Frederick’s story. Young lovers separated for eight long years, throughout which they continued to love another? Constancy! That beautiful and rare thing, and it was all I saw.

Now: Well, now…I have to “tsk” at Frederick’s impulsive actions. After all, Anne wasn’t rejecting him, only suggesting that they postpone their plans until he was better situated. Granted he was young, and couldn’t take the sting of rejection. But then, to return later, and behave like a jerk of the highest order and shove every flirtation in her face? As if Anne had committed some heinous crime. I used to think he was my favorite romantic, but I’ve come to realize that while theirs is my favourite romance (I’m still a sucker for it, I admit), Frederick is far from being the ideal romantic hero.

Northanger Abbey

Then: I adored his story. It’s such a fun romp, and Catherine is a complete fangirl. Also, who can resist the devastating charm of Henry Tilney, whose hobbies including dancing, the science of smirking, and discussing muslin?

Now: I pretty much still feel the same way. Except now I wonder whether Henry falling for Catherine’s naivete and her unabashed adoration of him is enough of a foundation on which to begin a relationship. I suppose it’s a lot more than other couples at the time would have had to start with.


Then: I found Emma to be insufferable. At the start, she isn’t so bad, but as time goes on she become more and more … monstrous in a way. It’s like watching Frankenstein’s monster wreak havoc. If the monster was interested in matchmaking and manipulating the lives of those around them. I thought she was lucky to have someone like Knightley around her, who was perhaps the only one in her circle who wasn’t afraid to point out her flaws.

Now: I still find Emma insufferable, but I’m also a little fond of her. I suppose everyone goes through that stage where they believe they don’t need to be told anything, and that they know exactly what they’re doing. Emma’s just a much more forthright person, so all her opinions manifest into real-life catastrophes for those around here. In any case, it makes for an entertaining read. Plus, Knightley’s become my favourite Austen hero – there’s something to be said for the devastating combination of common sense and a healthy sense of humour.


Looking back, I can see how my tastes have changed as I matured more. I think I’ve grown more understanding of the characters in some ways, but perhaps become more judgmental in other ways. What can I say? To judge is human.

Let me know about your Austen experiences. I’d love to hear them. She’s had such a wide ranging influence that it’s always interesting to hear how differently she’s interpreted. (And don’t worry, I can handle criticisms.)


9 thoughts on “Austen & Me, Then & Now

  1. I’ve only read Northanger Abbey (which I thought was great) and Pride and Prejudice (which I was on the fence about), and only recently, but this is a great idea. Love the idea of looking back on how novels have changed in your eyes.

    Was planning my next Austen to be Emma, as I enjoyed the humourous Northanger Abbey the most so far, so hopefully she doesn’t wear on me too much…

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    • NA is such a fun read! Yes, it’s probably more me changing enough to notice other things in the novels.
      “Emma” is definitely humorous – try not to resist her and it will be a far more entertaining read that way. Though I can’t promise zero grating.


  2. Always loved Elizabeth Bennett and still do but these days I notice Austen’s bitchiness to Aunt Norris more, and I’m more struck by Mr Bennett’s selfishness. I really love Mansfield Park, though I find Fanny a pain in the neck. A lecturer in the dim distant days at university tried to persuade us that she wasn’t, but I was unconverted. I find the book so interesting though, all the business about the play at Mansfield Park and the really black story of Maria. And of course these days I raise my eyebrows at the thought that their wealth was based on the slave trade and indentured labour in the plantations. Cone to think of it, it might be better not to enquire where Mr Darcy’s ten thousand pounds a year came from….

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    • It’s hard not to be charmed by Elizabeth, but it’s also hard not see her flaws. No doubt that complexity is what makes her a great character. Have to agree with you about Mr. Bennet – I just want to give him a clip around the ear.
      Fanny is SO hard to like. I don’t know why that is. I think if she’d had a few more people around her who were actually her friends then she might have come to life.
      Oh man, yeah. Well the British Empire’s history is very bloodied, and that’s bound to seep to all corners I reckon. There is no way anyone is fully innocent of one or other type of exploitation.


  3. Northanger Abbey has always been disappointing to me but last year I persuaded my book group to reread it along with Val McDermid’s retelling, and we had a great discussion about both books.


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  5. It’s interesting to see how your reactions to Jane Austen’s novels have changed over the years. Mine have too, but I haven’t analyzed it. Persuasion is my favorite Austen novel (because of Anne and its setting between the Napoleonic wars), but Frederick isn’t my favorite of Austen’s romantic heroes. That would be Henry Tilney (and the title of my blog–The Misfortune of Knowing–comes from Northanger Abbey).

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    • Yes, people always say it’s the mark of a good book how it changes over time. Ahh, it’s hard not to love Persuasion. Anne is such a lovely character, and so strong! It’s taken me awhile to see Frederick’s rashness (and idiocy?), though. Thank you for your comment.


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